Everything documented in these pieces is intended to work in the service of exposing the way Ian has perceived life through the lens of mental illness. This is an honest and sometimes confusing circular narrative. It is a story of sickness- not good or bad, but simply true. It is an internal conversation between the two selves within the author and how they fight to control and shape his behavior - ultimately attempting to define who he truly is.
Anxiety, panic, compulsion, obsession, depression, and addiction - these have been his primary struggles in life and have challenged him in ways he would never have thought possible. This project seeks to prop open a window into that world - even if only to reveal, in some very small way, how terrifying, convoluted, deconstructed, frustrating, insightful, and beautiful that world can be. For better or for worse, suffering from these chronic mental health issues has come to define the author. He is it. It is him. This is the story of his mental illness.